I know this may be selfish. I haven't written anything about my dad and my loss yet, but my birthday is tomorrow and it's going to suck.

It's going to suck because, my dad won't be calling me and telling me that I 21 or 18, just to keep him from feeling old.
 

I feel so bad, because despite all of the love and wishes I will be receiving and already received, I can't be happy. I miss him so much.