I lost my father 10 months ago when I was 21. Losing a parent at this age sucks. I am going through a job search now, and he was always the person who knew a lot about that and could help me. I don't have anyone to go to now and I keep getting rejected from jobs. It makes me feel like I am not good enough or worth it. Sometimes I wish I was dead so I could be with him and not have to worry about trying to be an adult without him.