to my darling son shawn, everyday seems to get harder and harder to go on with out you. I cant remember what its like to sleep a full night, to not cry every day. to pray to go with you. how do I go on? how do I watch others smiling, laughing, shawn I need you so bad,i wear your things to bed I smell them all night long, ill never ever wash them, I need to know you have not left me alone. my heart feels like its slowly stopping, dear god I miss my baby, those beautiful big brown eyes that deep voice and such a wonderful smile. I want so much to hold you , kiss you and never let you go. I love and miss you more then life, I hope we are together soon, its to hard to live with out you.  love you forever  shawn.  mom