Its still hard for me to sleep at night. My doctor gave me "something" to help me sleep, but I don't feel I need to take it often. I spend most nights (that I'm off) awake in front of the tv. I hate that I don't feel motivated to do things around the house. Sometimes I want to move to another house but then I think about all that I would be leaving behind, the memories of her. I often turn off all emotions and just work on auto pilot. I hate that my husband isn't here, especially when I lay here crying. All I wan't is for him to be here for me, I know he is going through the same loss I am, I guess more for us to be there for each other. But to be honest he wasn't here before the accident and he's not here now. This is a different type of loneliness, yes I have family and friends that are here for me but its just like having no one at all.