Latisha - I am so sorry for your loss - your daughter is absolutely beautiful, you must miss her terribly. The thing that has struck me most about your post is how much you blame yourself - for being tired. As a single parent myself, I worked two jobs and weekends just to make ends meet so we all know those moments of utter exhaustion. I feel the policeman behaved in an awful fashion and I'm angry that you weren't allowed to go with your chilren to the hospital - where they could have done the blood work anyway. I hope you are getting some support from your family and friends. And have you thought about getting some counselling to help you deal with your feelings of guilt? The group here is small but very supportive - so feel free to rant and rave, cry and scream or just talk - we understand your pain and will try to help you get through the awful muddle that grief leaves us in. It's fine being a strong Mummy for your son but you need to be able to express your grief sometimes or you will burst. I've been walking this road a long time - 8 years now - if there is anyway I can help you - just let me know. My shoulders are broad and made for crying on. Take care my love - your little Angel will be well looked after by all our Angels.
Hugs Gail xx