its so hard

you cannot simply make someone go away that you have been with for so many years.It makes you wonder why things happend the way they do . I have flashbacks would I say horrible,horrible in the sense that Iam expecting her to come through the door and scold me for the mess I have created. I still loved her even if she made it difficult at times.

So now I feel like Iam inside a tornado thats whirling around at 300 mph. I know I shouldn,t say this but since she has been gone I have wondered where it all ends,to die with her would have been a welcome blessing. Anyway Iam due for a PSA blood test(checking on how the progress of my prostate being taken out and cancer returning) It hard as anyone here can tell you when loosing a spouse or loved one.

So (loosing spouse 101 how to survive) ?????  Wheww! I read some of the blogs and it just blows me away.

Well we will see "what are you going to do " I wonder what other hell the good lord has in store for me what ever it Iam sure it won,t be quick and easy I was born to be lost in the bowels of hell I just didn,t know it

(sorry Iam depressed)

 

Dave

 

 

 

 

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Comment by David H on August 26, 2012 at 7:40pm

thanks again I went to the the web sight recover-from -grief .com . It helped immensly and will be a sourse of inspiration as I get through my period of loss

Comment by anna l. on August 26, 2012 at 6:00pm

David I found this page, http://www.recover-from-grief.com/7-stages-of-grief.html was very helpful in letting me know what I was going through was "normal".  It lists the 7 stages of grief.  Everyone goes through basically the same things but in their own time, their own sequence.  Its nice to have a bit of an idea though.

Comment by David H on August 26, 2012 at 5:01pm

thank you anna your comment helped me understand more of what iam going thru

Comment by anna l. on August 24, 2012 at 9:58pm

David, Im sending you a great big hug of understanding.  There are many phases of grief.  Anger, denial, questioning, depression, all come before acceptance and understanding.  It is not easy!!

I hope with some time you start to feel more grounded and you can plan and enjoy the rest of your life.  You deserve to be happy again.  We all do....

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