Last night , I had the most amazing if not slightly confusing dream, it was the kind where you are unsure if it was a dream or that it really happened. I remember it just being a standard dream , some random man was following me and I ran into a room to hide , this is the point it got weird, I was standing facing a wall when all of a sudden I felt arms wrapped around me from behind and put them hands on top of mine, I instantly knew it was Andy , I just felt it , I even said Andy is that you(he didn't answer) it didn't matter though as I knew it was him, you can not mistake the touch of the man you have loved for 20 years,  I was to totally aware at this point that I was a sleep, if that makes an sense, its difficult to explain. I was trying to turn around to see if I could see him , but I just couldn't , he just kept rubbing my hands with his, I felt it, it was so real, I then(still aware I was asleep) was telling myself not to wake up over and over, I didn't want the feel of his touch to end, I then did unfortunately wake up, and I had the most intense feeling deep inside me that Andy was actually there with me for those few minutes,  even now writing this, I don't understand what happened , ive had vivid dreams of him before, but he's never touched me in them, I guess I want to believe in something that I know can not be real (I don't believe in an afterlife) but this really effected me today, I keep asking myself what if?and that maybe just maybe there is something that we all don't know. And the fact that it happened last night when I had the day from hell at work(I broke down in tears in front of a customer out of nowhere) makes it all the more meaningful to me, I'm so confused maybe I'm just looking for things that aren't there, but I cannot get the realness out of my head, I think I'm going slightly insane x