So my parents are gone. So when things get hard there's no one to say hey I need help or how do I fix this..when my best friend passed I thought great no one to say this is hard to.

I own a house I paid it off best 3 grand I've ever spent. Unfortunately my x who is also on the deed destroyed it and ran to a state where my parents are buried. It took me forever to fix his damage. Then my kid came back to live with me her dad is a trip constantly engaged or married I can't keep up but he each time promises my kid a perfect life she's a teen and runs thinking money rules the world. I told her my parents gone stop this she told me I was a terrible mom so I came up with a plan rent my house and go home to where my parents are buried..problem is I feel like I'm abandoning my child yet she needs to learn I'm tired and this is not a game..this is life..when she gets upset it's I'm going to my dad my other grandparents his x wives they all treat her like dirt..she knows this but yet cares so much about phones and anything evolving money it's sick..I can't help but think of my mom at this point because once when I was lil she packed me and my sister up and took us to the same place..it was a time when my father thought money and being evil ruled the world. So in a conversation to a friend I stated I wished to be nothing like my mother but yet here I am following her footsteps just minus taking my kid and I've thought about taking her yet were binned to the state by a

judge if I go she must stay..we have been binned here for 5 years I'm not from here and it's a shit hole town everyone's on drugs or uses your kindness..so any advice on what to do? If I go I have a chance to find the guy on deed and say sign off the deed and know I'm alive again..if I stay I watch my kid use us against each other due to being divorced and get in my face tell me so many mean things and her father was abusive so yes I see it in her and I can't watch it anymore I won't feel alive at all but I will know I'm staying for her to change something I can't change. I'm really lost..I have a great bf for now and I say now because I have no clue what our future holds Togather as he is on a base very far away and distance makes it harder if I go we would be closer Togather but I feel like I'd be having to ask for his time as he is so busy..so he's at this point not even a part of the equasion..so any advice will help..thank you for reading