The mention of your name, the vision of your face, the thought of your embrace, I thank God I still have those moments when I can hear you call my name. You were my breath, my life, and my soul. I know it is selfish, I know it is not fair to those still around me but I find most times how it is that I can still breathe? Will my heartache ever feel relief? Will it ever go away? All these things bring me, is the reality that you are no longer by my side. I know you look down on me from up in heaven, I try to take comfort knowing, but just so you know, it doesn't ease the pain.

Hearing you say to me, many many times, "Baby please don't ever leave me or I'll come kick your ass." Although this used to make me giggle, and hug you with all my might, I recall my response to you was the same as yours. I can not find you to make that happen, but someday when I find you, just so you know, I will be there with my foot prepared, and it will be a great show. Did you know I loved you, more than life itself? And those words you said as we stated our vows, I too only kneel before God and you Jimmy.

I hope as I'm writing these words that are in my head, that you can hear me loud and clear, and that it is enough to be said.

I love you................