This is the first time I’ve ever written a blog but here goes. I’ve been having a really hard time lately, I lost my dad when I was 14 and my Mum last year to terminal cancer. I’ve had bereavement counciling last year but as the first year anniversary is coming up from my mums death I’m feeling lost again and on my own. Christmas has always been a hard time of year anyway and is now even harder than it was before. I was my mums cared for 3 and a half years and all I keep thinking about is what I was doing this time last year, abut the fact I was staying in the hospital and then at the hospice with her too and every day it gets closer to that day I feel like I get a little bit worse everyday with coping with it.