To the people whom have posted either blogs are message's to me, I am so grateful for your story's of your losses you put me in my place.  I found out how lucky We were to be there when Matthew passed I'm so new to your wonderful site I don't know where I am are were I'm supposed to be when I post. However I needed to read the post it set back to a place I needed to be y'all but my feet back on the ground

.Now what happen since I posted last that got me stirred up is my son fiancee, My son ask her to marry him the morning he was rushed to the hospital. Anyway My son died of a Over Dose of methamphetamine.  I've been told the dose in his system would of killed a horse and this came from a retired DEA agent.  Well the young man my son was working for he met while he was sitting in jail for a drunken stunt, that happen in May of 2012.  He was in a blackout and while they were trying to handcuff him he had one hand  loose he grabbed for the sheriff pistol.  That got him 6 month in county

I thought he was cleaning up and was staying that way after he got out because , he wanted his two boy's.  But the temptation I guess was just to much.  We had to wait 3 months before we got the autopsy back.  They were testing for all the drugs in his system  We been told several story that was supposed to have happen that morning.  Long story short we we're going to the sheriff with the finding ,we,d been told the young man Matthew was working with is a well know drug dealer in his city along with cousin and uncles.

Well the fiancee got drunk one night last week and got a hold of the young man in question.  Well after she told him the results of the tox screen and cursed him out telling him we'd planned on going to the sheriff.  He has skipped town are at least that the word that circulating among the people my son knew.  She told me a week and a half ago it was more like begging me not to use her as a witness because she in a custody fight with her ex husband.  Well I can't keep her out of it now she put her self right in the middle.  I so upset I haven't sleep and I afraid of what this do to us having the sheriff dept helping us now at all.  I'm sorry but I had to let this stem go are I would explode are else do something I can't take back.  Thank you for listening to my problems seem I knock one down and two shot straight up.  This is some of the things going on with my family right now that keeping us pinned down and not allowing us any room to breath.  Again Thank you for listening to me rant this am now maybe I can sleep a couple hours.  Judy Edwards

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