The other day was a bad day at work and I ended up crying in the office bathroom, longing to just talk to my parents and gran (i called her ouma) one more time.  I heard a car stop outside the office and I imagined it was them coming to fetch me for the day.  I tried to imagine what it would be like if God let my parents leave heaven and come visit me one day, just to tell me things will be okay and that they love me and are looking down at me from heaven.  I left the bathroom with red eyes and a red face and came back to my desk.  No mommy and daddy waiting outside for me.  I cannot wait to go to heaven to be with them!  Life on earth is just so painful without them.  I wonder if they can see me from heaven and know what pain I am in and how much I love and miss them?  I have so much questions about heaven and the afterlife, but I know I will never know the answers until I get there one day.  I am a Christian and know that my parents are safe with God.  It is myself I am concerned about, who must stay behind on earth without them.  I am in a lot of pain but I pray all the time for strength to carry on with my life.  Love you mommy, daddy and ouma!