Today is November 17, 2011 and my son would have turned 31!!  Wow....I wonder what kind of man he would have been......married??....children??...  I'll never know and can only dream.  That's all my thoughts can consist of anymore --- dreams and made up stories of how full my life would be if he was still here.  But instead, I am empty....  He died at the age of 22 on July 26th.  My life will never be the same.  I know events and things happen to change our lives every day but when you lose a child on the cusp of adulthood and you're ready to sit back and enjoy the rewards of all your hard work in raising him and in an instant it is all gone and a piece of you has died too.  I am alone and miss him.  Happy Birthday Josh!!