Since my husband passed away on 1/6/09 I realized the other day, I don't smile, I don't laugh and I sure don't feel. I don't feel happiness. But I can say, when I start to think about him, I feel pain and the tears come and don't want to stop.

I watch tv.and if its supposed to be funny. I don't think it is. I changed everything that I used to do right down to the type of music I listen to.

I feel sometimes, I just don't know how to be me without him.