Dear Mom & Dad,
Today is my birthday. & I have so much happening in my life. B & I have a new home, I can't believe we're home owners but we are! It needs some work, but it's ours to work on! & we're getting married this summer, can you believe that? I'm not so little anymore am I? Soon enough we'll be having a family of our own & i'll become mom just like you once were. We have so much happiness & joy happening around us, & some how all I can think about is sharing it with you guys.

I don't know if you can hear me when I talk to you & I don't know if you're somewhere looking down on me, but I sure hope so. I hope that you're proud of the not so little girl you once held hands with. Because it's certainly not easy for me. I find it so hard without you here to share your advice & encouragement. I have so many things to share with you.

I moved away from home a couple of months after you died. I really needed to get away from the family & the way they contantly argue. It hurts my heart to see that.

Who will walk me up the aisle when our day comes? I'm scared to do it without you.
I chose purple for my bridesmaids to wear, in honor of dad's cancer ribbon. & the wedding favors are christmas balls, I know how you loved chistmas. I know it seems strange in the summer time mom, but they're pretty purples and green. Again, dad's cancer ribbon. I know you would have loved them.

Did you see the dress? I fell in love. & I cried so much that you weren't there. 

We've decided to start a family after the wedding, B is hoping for a girl. I really don't care as long as the baby is healthy. What would you like?

I adopted two cats when I moved, you know I have a soft spot for animals. I've been letting a stray hide from the cold winter under the porch add on as well. Don't tell B, you know he would kill me for letting the little guy stay under there. But it so cold outside & it's warm under there. I've also been feeding the stray, I know I know bad. I just have too. I'm going to start saving some money to get him fixed, if I can catch him first. He's pretty scared of people. Maybe after he's fixed he can come inside..

Okay, if i'm admitting that i'm taking in strays.. i'm also feeding two deer too. They keep coming upto the house. So i've been sneaking the old veggies out to them. I threw them in the wishing well so snow doesn't bury them. Yes, I know they come to the house because i'm feeding them. Again, I just have too they're hungry.

Why does it seem like my life keeps going & i'm still the same person inside that I was when you were here but I feel as though i'm missing a limb? I miss you both more then you can understand. 

Xoxoxo-E