Your spouse dies your life screeches to a halt,I told my therapist I would have preferred to die with her .Whats the use.Anyway not happening,Iam not suicidal don,t even drink that much.Iam getting there ,I have to remind myself slow going.One cann,t change 35 yrs of life with the same person regardless of there personal life together.I think the bond together is so strong it remains with you.I think consciously the bond may get weaker but I believe will never go away.Like many of us I feel so lost.I learn to move forward as painful as it is.

Dave