I contemplate contacting the killer I guess i want to convince myself he is not evil he made a mistake hes repentful I can forgive truly forgive him..can I? I try..He took my brother and 2 others wasnt there another way?? I want to yell at him, wasnt there another way???? Did you have to kill him, (Im screaming at him these words) Why Brian, did you go down that path why did you not heed my warnings in the letters why did you have to go so young, barely experiencing life..Just don't get it..