My dear Becky boy....

Another day without you and it hasn't been any easier. The sun is shining, the birds are chirping, and I'm sitting here thinking about how much you would enjoy today. I can just imagine you laying flat out on the grass, with the warmth of the sun shining down on you. You loved that spot in front of the house. The chair that you slept in every night is just so empty. I sit and stare, and sometimes I can imagine you lying there.

I keep wondering why. Why did we have such a short time together? Why did you have to leave so soon? The guilt is still all-consuming. Was I a good mom? Did I make you happy? Did I show you enough love? I'm hoping the pain gets easier tomorrow.