It has been two days since I put my beloved dalmatian dog, Beckett, to sleep. Grief and guilt have overcome me and I'm finding it hard to function in my daily duties. Some people may question why this is so hard... just a dog right? Not Beckett - he was our son. My husband Tom and I adopted him as a pup when we bought our first place together. We don't have children and Beckett was our son. 

I just feel so empty. When you are used to waking up with him greeting you good morning, and there when you are cooking and doing chores around the house, it's just not the same without him. So much of our life revolved around him and I don't know how I'm going to go on. 

How do I deal with the physical pain? I shake, my head hurts, and I'm finding it hard to eat. I hope each day becomes a little easier, but that's hard to imagine at this point.