On June 28th 2011 it will be the 10th anniversary of my mom's death and I have more grief today then I had when she first died. I was numb for along time after she died and I just didn't know how to feel. I dread this anniversary because it will finally hit home for me that she is gone and she will never come back. I miss her every day and I am angry at the cancer that took her life. I just have been so emotionally numb and I just haven't dealt with it as I should have. I am so jealous of people who have mom's still but I also get pissed off to know end when they fight with their mom's because I long to have mom around to fight with talk with and hug and love again. To know people have mom's they take for granted. I long for my mom and I miss her so much. I wonder if I will ever feel anything but anger about mom's death I just don't know.