Hi mom,

I sat outside with the lovely flowers and the new hydrangea tree and thought of you mom and how much I love you. I know you would have enjoyed all of the new flowers and trees I've planted but I never seemed to have the time to plant them when you were here. I even laughed a little thinking of some of the fun times we had together... going shopping at WalMart or even going to your eye dr. and the weekend times of sitting on the porch.  The flowers i've planted are gorgeous and the day lillies I"ve put on your grave should hopefully be blooming, now Then I cried. It was time to go to work so I went. Now i'm sitting here writing this and work doesn not seem important.

I can only hope that some day I will continue on with my life the way you would want me to. I think Roscoe senses how I am so sad, sometimes he puts his head in my lap like he trusts me ! pretty good for an abused little doggie! YOu would like to see him, now. OUr neighbor, Ms Stxxx had an ambulance come by and take her to the hospital this week. 

It was so much like how you had to go those many times. I went over and toucher her arm and asked if I should call her son. She said he knew and I think she liked me saying hi to her as they took her off. Working with the elderly is something I would love to do. It woudl be so meaningful to me since it seems like the world just throws them off with all of their world of knowledge and experience.

I hope you are in a much better place - definately where you deserve to be. 

I hate it that you lost your confidence and dignity and eyesight over the last year of your life.

I love you ,

Sandra