So it has been five weeks since my dad had died. That still sounds weird in my head, the fact that my dad died. How the fuck could that be? He was only 57? Why is the only question I have? Was my dad a bad guy, did he deserve to die, why take him so early? It just does not make sense to his 27 year old daughter, he did not get to walk me down the aisle, he did not get to witness the birth of my first child, it is so unfair? Really is there someone above us who gets to decide this shit? Really it is unfair and fuck you is all I have to say! My dad was not a bad guy, he deserved to watch all of his kids get married and have kids, and he deserved to see his great grand kids! All he was give and give, he deserved for us to give and give back to him! I will always love you Freddy and never forget you ! love Abigail Estelle Welby