4/8/15: Today is 4 weeks that Nick was found and that he has been gone. I have been begging him to come to one of my dreams so I could see him. It hasn't happened. I dream things about Nick but not OF Nick himself. I know that Nick was very shy. I don't know if that has anything to do with it. But I know that he has been sending me signs in my dreams. Last night I dreamt that I was looking through pictures and they were all of Nick. Pictures I had never seen before. I could see your beautiful green eyes in them. I remember the pictures clearly. I don't know why I dreamt of pictures of you because I know that you hated pictures. I have your photo album that you had next to my bed and its empty, you didn't have a single picture in there. I have been searching for pictures of Nick like crazy. I plan on putting every single picture that I find/have of Nick in that photo album. All the pictures that I have Nick is looking away from the camera because he just didn't like to have his picture taken but I still cherish them the same. I know that when he is ready Nick himself will come to my dreams but for now I am thankful to feel his presence around me. I have a picture of Nick smiling of course looking away from the camera. I miss your smile.