Another day begins, ugh.

Today's itinerary:

1) Open eyes and realize the nightmare continues

2) Anxiety builds as I think of what I have to do and know the level of loneliness I will feel.

3) Plan tasks to fill meaningless day

4) Do tasks like an automaton, while mind lives in past replaying what I should have done or said.

5) Suffer, suffer, and suffer some more

6) Hope for some calmness in the evening.

7) Perhaps a few hours of calm in the evening.

8) Sleep

9) Rinse and repeat.