To say I miss you in such an understatement.  It feels so weird to be a widow at 53.  I thought we were going to grow old together and see our kids get married and grandchildren and all that.  I love you so much as if you were right here next to me.  I am going through the motions, but my heart is so heavy. How do people do this?  All I can be sure of is that I know you are in Heaven and God needed you for some reason I do not understand.  But I will be good here for you my love because I surely want to see you again. Please wait for me.  I love you.