1 Corinthians 10:13
"....but God is faithful,who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape,that ye may be able to bear it."
HE did also say the in this world we would "have trials and tribulations..."
He also said He would "Never leave you, nor forsake you...." (Heb.13:5)
I wish I could take this pain from each of you...myself included...
I have experienced ALL kinds of loss, but NOTHING compares to losing my Love and Buddy.
I am on short term medical leave, and going to a counselor.
I am praying, but I am also a realist. I know death is a part of life.
I also know that my heart has been torn out and stomped on.
I feel like I am walking around naked or worse yet that my right half of my body has been cut off, and I have open and exposed innards that are oozing and painful from the air and stuff that I am hitting with that side.
Everyone tells me "He's in a better place", "at least he's not hurting anymore", "at least he is with Jesus"...well I WANT TO BE IN THAT BETTER PLACE, I WANT TO NOT HURT ANYMORE, I WANT TO BE WITH JESUS!!!!
I am not in a good mood and shouldn't be writing tonight...it is Monday.
It is the night Terry died. My counselor says I am doing well. That I just need to give myself time.
I want that magic potion that puts me where it doesn't hurt. Or I want to be with him.
I thank you all for listening...I pray we all find that "peace that passes all understanding"..
I have felt it before..I desperately need it now.
May we rest this night.
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