Well I dont know what im doing here i think i will mostly be reading posts... The love of my life that i have been with since 7th grade passed away march 20.  he was everything.. my best friend, lover, husband, father to my 10 and 12 year old.  it was always us.  Everybody we knew always said we had the best relationship.. i know nothing is ever perfect especially now. But as people keep telling me life goes on and give it time.. From the first day he passed to now it has not gotten even a…