My grief is still very new (my husband passed away on December 3rd of this year).  Writing and networking with others has really helped.  I had a doctor's appointment yesterday and to having to circle W in the marital status field was traumatizing.  I know that is just one of many challenges I will face over the next year. This morning as I was trying to wrap my 3 grandson's Christmas gifts (that thank God I purchased in November-I can't do the stores right now) my tears were falling on the…

My husband passed away on December 3, 2010 while waiting for a heart transplant.  He had undergone 3 major surgeries in the past two years.  I was in a state of shock for the first week and now every day seems to be getting worse.  Yesterday I picked up his ashes.  Today I donated all of his clothing after family members took some of his nicer things.  My hands are shaking as I'm trying  to type.  I can't sleep, I can't eat.  I know I have to go through this in order to heal (I equate this…