It has been already been 4 months since I lost my only child my son at the age of 26. I am finding myself  becoming resentful of them time passing. How can it be 4 months since I hugged my boy, or listened to his laughter. ugh this is such a hard struggle to be here without him. If it wasnt for his son my little grandson who is 6, I dont think I could do this at all.

Ah my dear boy I love you so very very much, I am still here and that seems so very wrong. I miss you horribly and everyday is challenge for me. I am doing the best I can since you have left your little son as well, so just know that I am doing everything in my power for him to be safe and secured and most importantly loved. Your birthday is coming up on March 11th, and I do not look forward to that day without you here. You should of been turning 27, just really starting out your life. Love…