As a woman, emotions are hard to handle, hard to control and hard to calm into logic.  But  being a woman or not, I'm sure this can go for anyone, this grieving, this pain seems to be its own person. Like a heavy weight inside my head and heart, a powerful spirit who can buckle me at my knees...With all respect for my mother i know she wouldn't  want me to still be crying, to still be able to not function without her. But at times it just seems like i cant help it. I wonder why it is that we…