Even though this is my first christmas without my husband, it really was joyous. I decedid to give my testimony christmas eve. I had went through a divorce when i was 27 and married jeremy when i was 33. but my divorce i really got angry at God started drinking, going with different men, and putting my life in danger. when i met jeremy. i was so much in love. he died this october 2010. he was 32. it crushed me. but my faith grew. i felt Gods presence like i never felt before. i spoke at…