It's been 5 months and it feels no different than 5 months ago. The tears just keep coming. My husband of 20 yrs died suddenly at age 44. I was told it gets easier, but does not feel like it at all. The shock, the anger, the disbelief, the why, the hurt, the tears, the fear, everything still feels fresh. I get it all out when I see a therapist, but I want to be able to live one day without all that. I want to be able to have fun with my kids again without feeling sorry for them. They had the… Continue