Sometimes I think no one know the pain I feel. The tears are real, I feel so lost sometimes. Sometimes I feel like I can't rise above the pain. His photographs are placed in every room in the house. I know he is my angel, I would give anything for one more minute with him. I tell myself to be thankful he is out of the pain that the CANCER caused..... I thank God is was started in stage 4 and ended 4 months later. My pain is nothing compared to the pain he had to go through...

Well as if making it past xmas, new years, my husbands birthday, valentines day, wasn't hard enough now my birthday is coming up. LONELY, LONELY, YUK....
OK LORD I KNOW I AM TO ACCEPT HIS DEATH BUT WHY DOES IT WEIGH SO HEAVY ON MY HEART.
HOLD ME UP LORD, HELP ME TO KEEP GOING ON WITHOUT HIM, ONE DAY AT A TIME.
Friends are great, but when couples are around it is a little hard. I guess this shall come to pass..
God bless everyone and hold your head up.