So its been 1 year 2 months and 10 days...do I count? yes Time does help at times, other moments and places it hasn't made a difference, I still cry sometimes in church.

Time a healing factor? Not in my eyes for anyone that experiences a loss its all about how you handle grief. For one time may help, for another a remembrance may help, for another depression, for another family...

My thoughts and Pryers are with everyone that has experienced a loss..handle it your way, not what…

So time still isn't helping I know its been not quite 3 months but the days are long the nights are long, I'm still crying all the time. And now what....three days ago my dad was admitted to the hospital for pneumonia..he keeps telling me he is tired, tired all the time.I know he is missing mom although he doesn't cry like me, I know deep in my heart he is heartbroken. .nothing is the same he doesnt like to do alot of the things he did before mom went to heaven..I won't be able to handle…

So I really can't stand it when people keep telling me you will be OK. How do they know I'll be OK? 

They aren't with me 24 hours a day 7 days a week. They dont see me cry, or how many times I cry. They don't see the little things that may mean so little to someone how much they mean to me, such as cooking in a pan my mom used when I was growing up, or the thought of going to church and her not being thee, or the ten times she would call me in a matter of four hours and her not…