Hi MJ, I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my dear Mom too. July 22, 2014. I am a only child. I also work at my families business for most of my life along with my mom. She was so much a part of my life. For so many years. I miss her so much. I miss our talks. She was smart. I could talk over my problems with her. She could calm me. Make everything all right. I miss seeing her. She loved flowers. Knew all the names of the different plants in her yard. I can just see her now. Out there on her knees. With this little hand spade working in her flower beds. Its so very sad. I always knew that my Mom would have to leave me one day. But it's been harder than I ever imagined. I also lost my wife to cancer in 2013. She was just as sweet and wonderful as my Mom. I am finding it impossible to cope with this. It's just so hard. I really am still so lost. Just a head full of memeroiers like to one you described about cooking in your Moms pan. You are right about people. They don't know what to say to you. You will find a lot of them that avoid you. Its uncomfortable for them. I just say, I am doing Okay. Even though I am not. Its only been a few months for you. I can relate to what you are feeling. I had a terrible time. When my wife died. Even though it was expected. It devastated me way beyond anything I had imaged. Affecting my health. Couldn't sleep. Looking at pictures. Smelling her perfume. Crying all the time. One day while driving I almost fell asleep. Scared me pretty bad. Went to the Dr. He prescribed me some sleeping pills. They probably saved my life and the lives of others too. So we have to try and take care of ourselves. Don't be afraid to ask for help. This is a great forum. There are people here that are enduring the loss of their precious loved ones just like us. You can say what you feel. Know that others that read it understand. While its true. Everyone's grives different. Pain is pain. Knowing that you aren't alone is comforting somehow. I will keep you in my prayers.