Oh, I had written a reply on Change of Seasons and lost the whole thing.  Just needing to empty out my storage tank of sad thoughts.  Writing it out, talking to my son sometimes helps.

Coming up on another winter/holiday season and thoughts (memories) are running wild again.  Two nights ago (out of the blue) I pictured the snow that was on our deck the first winter you were not here.  Maybe it had been the first snowfall that year - I can't remember that.  All I know is that…

Fall is upon us once again and I'm thinking of bow hunting.

Charles and his dad love the outdoors and hunting.

Every season you come back to me 

As the seasons just keep moving on

they don't change because you're gone

But with…

My wish is that you can find some comfort in these words.

I had read this some time ago, but can't remember if it was here

or on another site.  It was given to me again today.

When I read this it just touched me as so true as my son was

so protective towards me (and his dad).

I felt like it was my Valentine from my son.

Valentine's day will be 7 months that he is gone

physically, but I don't believe he will ever be

truly…

Our lives go on without you

But nothing is the same,

We have to hide our heartaches

When someone speaks your name.

Sad are the hearts that love you

Silent the tears that fall,

Living our hearts without you

Is the hardest part of all.

You did so many things for us

Your heart was kind and true,

And when we needed someone

We could always count on you.

The special years will not return

When we…

Only those that have experienced this can truly understand and even then it seems we all grieve differently.  I was definitely surprised with my reactions and my feelings.  Nothing in this life ever prepared me for this or has been this devastating.



I have written a lot since his death, but could not share it.  My raving and crying out as to why would be to someone else very confusing.  My writings to him were private at the time.  I collected so many poems on saying…