I lost my husband in November 2015.  I felt so numb at first, now I just feel pain, sadness, sorrow and grief.  I live in a very small rural community (everyone knows everyone's business) and there is no support group here.  I work at the local convenience store and have a very hard time at work some days.  I know most people do not want to really know how I am doing, but they politely ask anyway.  Some genuinely care and ask.  I never thought losing John could hurt so much.  I wake up…