Oh, I had written a reply on Change of Seasons and lost the whole thing.  Just needing to empty out my storage tank of sad thoughts.  Writing it out, talking to my son sometimes helps.

Coming up on another winter/holiday season and thoughts (memories) are running wild again.  Two nights ago (out of the blue) I pictured the snow that was on our deck the first winter you were not here.  Maybe it had been the first snowfall that year - I can't remember that.  All I know is that…