My mom was great!

 My mom was the kind of person that no matter who, what , where or when you were, came from or what We are all people. She was the kind of person that tried so many jobs i can say my mom did that. She was funny, smart and made friends easily but didn't like to because then they would either move away or pass away and she couldnt…

Today is a dark gloomy day. It seems like everything i have tried to do to make today a good day just wont stick. I miss mom so much. I feel lost without her. i feel like "how do i live without here"? i mean damn at some point it has to start to get better right?

I have been down with a cold the last week, all it has done is give me time to think. And i am done i am so done with being tired from ACTING happy at work, So done with being tired all the time because i can't sleep or don't  get enough sleep. I never knew that greif would take so much out of you. Will i ever be normal again? Will the pain ever stop? I guess i am just sick and tired of being sick and…

Today is a down day. I am just feeling low and really missing mom.

 It's hard to go day to day without her. And then my mind starts in with:

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I am new to this site. I hope having people to talk to who know how i feel and understand will help me. When my mom died, it was like something inside me snapped. I feel lost, empty and all alone. I have a little sister she will 22yrs but she does not talk about what happened. I think that's how she deals with it.…