Today I want to just pack up and run away. I want to go somewhere where no one knows me or knew him. Where I can try and enjoy 5 minutes of life without the reminder that he isn't here with me. He was loved by so many and so many want to honor him and remember him, that everything is about him. I am still so entrenched into his family, which is a blessing and a curse. I helped his mother plan and do a baby shower for his sister-in-law. They kept calling me aunty. T-shirts were made with his…