I'm having a bad day today but most mornings are awful.  My husband of 55 years has been gone now for 6 months.  In some respects that time has gone by really fast but I remember every detail of that awful time as if I am going through it right now.  And I am very bitter about the circumstances surrounding his death.  He went in the hospital to have a week of Chemo and he never left.  He developed 3 different infections while there and they literally sucked the life right out of him.  He had…