Has to be around dinner time and after, I I didn't not hear from Josh all day, I'd get a call around dinner...what's for dinner ma? I think some nights I think the phone will ring. I start to cry a d do on and off till I  fall asleep, I don't know how I  sleep, maybe cause he's at peace 

First forgive if I repeat myself,  my son's been gone 3 months, I feel like I'm  In the twilight zone. Everything foggy. My son struggled with addiction for years. We tried everything, doctors, inpatient, out patient. Then we began thinking HE HAS TO WANT IT OR it won't work. Finally it seemed he wanted it, he was in jail for a vop  and found a spiritually based program, that you pd 169 per week. He got out of jail they picked him up, he got saved, drove Pastor s crazy with questions.  But…

First forgive if I repeat myself,  my son's been gone 3 months, I feel like I'm  In the twilight zone. Everything foggy. My son struggled with addiction for years. We tried everything, doctors, inpatient, out patient. Then we began thinking HE HAS TO WANT IT OR it won't work. Finally it seemed he wanted it, he was in jail for a vop  and found a spiritually based program, that you pd 169 per week. He got out of jail they picked him up, he got saved, drove Pastor s crazy with questions.  But…