First forgive if I repeat myself,  my son's been gone 3 months, I feel like I'm  In the twilight zone. Everything foggy. My son struggled with addiction for years. We tried everything, doctors, inpatient, out patient. Then we began thinking HE HAS TO WANT IT OR it won't work. Finally it seemed he wanted it, he was in jail for a vop  and found a spiritually based program, that you pd 169 per week. He got out of jail they picked him up, he got saved, drove Pastor s crazy with questions.  But there one girl he couldn't resist. So after a couple months  clean, she called him, said she was clean too. He went to see her ,she wasn't.  They used drugs Friday and Saturday night. He passed from an accidental  overdose on sunday. She stole his phone id and bank, but got nothing, he had changed pins and put a code lock on phone. I miss him constantly, dinner time is bad, usually he'd call " what's for dinner mama" ? Or if he didn't call I'd call him, and tell him what I was cooking. Hoping he'd come by.The world is not the same without him in it.i attend a support group and talk with a couple women who survived the same loss. It helps, just like groups like this, I'm tempted to call him. I have emailed him . They tell me the first year is the worst so august 15 I'll be half 

Lost mom