Today is our wedding anniversary and I'm so alone. All I want to do is crawl into a ball and die. I feel so desolate. The sun is shining outside but my world is grey and cold. I've written an anniversary card but I have no one to give it to, I feel like ripping it to pieces; like the broken pieces of my life.



It was so hard trying to find a card, reading through the verses in the shop I started crying. I hate crying in public, it makes me feel so out of control. That's what this… Continue

I haven't been on here for a while. I've been trying to push my grief away I think; I went on vacation, I spent a lot of money, I drank a lot. But nothing helps, you can't push it away, you can't hide from grief; it always finds you.



On vacation all I did was think of him, a drink I knew he would've loved, a beautiful view with no one to hold my hand and appreciate it with. If anything, I missed him even more. I felt twinges of sadness and pain everytime I saw something beautiful and… Continue