It has been already been 4 months since I lost my only child my son at the age of 26. I am finding myself  becoming resentful of them time passing. How can it be 4 months since I hugged my boy, or listened to his laughter. ugh this is such a hard struggle to be here without him. If it wasnt for his son my little grandson who is 6, I dont think I could do this at all.