I really miss her.  I feel like I died right along with her.  We were only together for a short while, but it seemed like a lifetime.  She was only 33 and died of cancer.  I was with her until the very end, and I keep thinking of all the things I should've said, I kept thinking that she was going to come out of this and everything would be back to normal again.  But she didn't.  I keep wishing that I could have talked to her one more time when she was conscious, to tell her how much love she…