It has been a year and a half later and it feels like he died before I was born. I went through a hard time grieving but, now I feel the grief again but he feels so far away. I don't know if it is him I am grieving or if there is something else. I just know I am sad and unmotivated to just take life day by day. I want to know how to slow down and take life day by day. I feel like I am on edge for the next thing to happen..good or bad.  Just sad.