One of my friends (who hasn't contacted me for weeks) sent me a cutesy picture of a cat and a message which asked "how are you?". Cat picture aside, I am tired of this question, particularly when I feel the person asking it just wants to hear I am feeling better. As if that is possible for me five months after my husband's suicide. After I lost the love of my life, my joy and my happiness.I don't know how to answer the how are you question anymore, but I will be damned if I'm going to put on a… Continue

Today I've been going through all my photos on my phone and moving them to my PC. Hundreds of photos of me and my wonderful husband, from our honeymoon and our wedding. I have not stopped crying, I can't cope with this pain, I feel like I'm reaching the end of my rope. I miss him so much, I don't want to live for the rest of my life without him. I love him so much. Oh god, what do I do? I'm so lost without him, I can't believe hes dead. Jesus help me.