So, I've never written a blog before, never felt like I had much to say. I guess I still don't have much to say, but I have always written in journals and things like that to help me through tough situations. So I think I will use this blog to document my healing progress.

It has been exactly 8 months, 2 weeks, 1 day, 2 hours and 51 minutes since my best friend Nathanial Cavalenes passed away in his sleep. In all that time, I figured I should be okay by now. But I'm not. Far…