Ok, so I have been in here since the beginning of August last year. My grandma past away suddenly and I joined the community, because I was looking for closure. Still haven't found that. We were close!!!! I guess, if I did not say anything it would have been like she never went away, that I wouldn't have to deal with it. I did not want to deal with it. I didn't want to accept that she is gone and I didn't even have a chance to say goodbye!!!! Sometimes I don't want to accept that she is…